post is after it cracks

Modernism is a castle.
An army besieging
waits beyond the moat,
as bricks tumble.

What is the moat, if
Postmodernism is the happening?

Mystical encounters: update

my interpretation of the dream described in the last post has changed. @ 1st i thought of the sexual encounter therein to be a message to have sex with the woman on the phone, even if it was not easy to do so. now i believe that my dream was telling me not to have sex with her. she needs me to be her friend.

let this be a reminder for readers (because it certainly has been for me) to handle your dreams with care. dream symbols must be recognized, isolated, interpreted, then reinterpreted within the context of the whole dream. dreams often provide us with powerful insights into our futures, but if we take the subtleties of dreams for granted we may suffer dire consequences. decisions made based on dreams must be rooted in sound interpretations of the symbols contained therein.

Mystical encounters

this year i read "Approaching the Unconscious" by Carl Gustav Jung (it was his last essay before dying). in the book he talked about how dreams can be used to predict the future:

The more that consciousness is influenced by prejudices, errors, fantasies, and infantile wishes, the more the already existing gap will widen into a neurotic dissociation and lead to a more or less artificial life far removed from healthy instincts, nature, and truth.

The general function of dreams is to try to restore our psychological balance by producing dream material that re-establishes, in a subtle way, the total psychic equilibrium... The dream compensates for the deficiencies of their personalities, and at the same time it warns them of the dangers in their present course...

Thus, dreams may sometimes announce certain situations long before they actually happen... Many crises in our lives have a long unconscious history. We move toward them step by step, unaware of the dangers that are accumulating. But what we consciously fail to see is frequently perceived by our unconscious, which can pass the information on through dreams.

with these ideas in mind i try to understand my dream. i was walking down the hallway of a hotel. i was walking down the hallway of a hotel, where i had just departed from my room while my lover slept. then a got a phone call from a woman, who i talked to about a trivial matter. then she started breathing "i need you," so i found her room.

we ended up embracing & naked. soon after i began penetrating her, she told me i wasnt doing it right. this confused me. she took hold of my dick & showed me her labia, which was shaped like a glistening, fleshy opium poppy. she proceeded to stuff my foreskin into a pinsized hole @ the blossom's tip. i was uncomfortable, which she could tell. then she said to me: "i need you," & i absorbed her words as i closed my eyes.

when i was stoned after waking up, i reflected on this dream again. i had the image of me on the phone & the woman's hand on hers as she spoke "i need you" more clearly than i could have hoped to remember a dream image.

my mind became unfocused again. now i'm writing about this mystical encounter. from 2 angles of perception (that is, with 2 different deities) ive perceived it & come to the same conclusion about it: i dont like this dream, which is why i had to quote jung on dream warnings. there is however a stroke of hope entwined here.

Genesis

titles reflect points of view, the best 1s indirectly. thats why i chose the best title in the history of all mankind. your welcome.

as i look @ the confluence of spirituality & intellect i wonder: "how can they be seen as anything other than 2 perspectives of 1 truth (no matter how elusive that truth)?" i suppose i will continue to wonder, for it seems manifestly obvious what spirituality and intellect are— faculties of the brain (whose differences are largely artificial) which seek to explain opposing spheres of human knowledge. spirituality deals with the un- or vaguely known, whereas intellect concerns the indisputably or well known.

there is no mind/body problem. for details, see chomsky's defense for this truth.

i hate 1st posts (dont you?), for they possess all the inspiration & charm of a course syllabus. this is not meant as an introduction so much as clarification of my awareness in regard to the blog itself. i sense that only personal anxiety deems such a statement necessary, but, anyway, ive already spoken. post!